Maia wants to be free. Free from the social obligations, free from the money, free from the control that her privileged upbringing has taken from her life. And at college, she wants to be unseen, unheard, unnoticed.
Jackson's life has been less than perfect since his high school girlfriend took the back door out of his life, permanently. After years of subscribing to an existence of less than gentlemanly behaviour, he decides to man up and go to college, promising to be done with random hook ups and female drama.
They had it all worked out, each one had a plan.
At least they did...until they met.
Together they run from everything; from life, from happiness, from each other. They are two people both so scared; of heartbreak, of repeating past mistakes, of trusting someone else. Two people simply scared of beautiful...
Please note: Scared of Beautiful is recommended for mature audiences 18+ due to sexual content and language
I didnât, however, take into account that when I was trying to be an elusive ice queen, that I am and probably always will be annoyingly comfortable in Jacksonâs company. After stuffing our faces, we order drinks and relax into the evening, which as it turns out, flies by with ease. The more scotch I drink, the more attractive Jackson becomes and my eyes revert more than once to the bulge in his jeans. If he notices, he doesnât mention a thing, but does casually adjust his pants when I lean forward to grab my phone from my bag, or to reapply my lip-gloss. I know Iâm teasing, deliberately bending forward to flash my black lace bra. I want him to want me. But at the same time, I told him not to. More than once in the evening Iâm distracted by the head versus heart versus vagina dilemma I have going on.
âThis is nice,â Jackson says quietly during our third round of drinks.
âWhat?â I ask curiously.
âHaving drinks, no pressure. I guess we can be friends after all. Who knew?â He gives me a cocky sideways grin.
âEasy huh?â I say with mock offense.
âNot even missing me a little?â I try to sound nonchalant, but the sadness makes its way past my smile.
âEvery day,â he says looking down with sudden interest at the label on his beer bottle. âIf being friends is the only way to see you, then itâs what Iâll gladly take.â
The conversation stalls right then, because truthfully, thereâs nothing either of us can say. Weâre both lying and we know it. This awkwardness, this conversation, will always be the elephant in the room for us.
I knock back the contents of my glass and order another. I should stop drinking. Thatâs what I should do. We should say goodnight and exit stage left to our respective lonely beds right fucking now. But neither of us go. Neither of us can. The Clever Bean around us is alive with the sounds of glasses clinking and drunken merriment. I knock back the next glass as it lands in my hand.
âI should go,â I say with hesitation before grabbing my bag.
âIâll walk you,â Jackson says standing up.
âIâm fine, itâs a few doors down,â I reply with a polite smile.
Jackson gives me a cocky grin, âMama said to be a gentleman at all times. Gotta listen to mama, now.â
I shrug and we walk. The whiskey obviously has had a much stronger effect on me now that Iâm standing up and using my lower extremities. After me missing the curb twice, Jackson slides an arm around my waist. I would tell him to back off, but heâs all thatâs keeping me walking in a straight line. And he smells so fucking good, like soap and fresh mint mixed with an ocean breeze.
This half drunk, half lucid state that Iâm in is doing nothing to help me maintain my resolve. I want to fucking leap into Jacksonâs arms, wrap my arms and legs around his person and hold on for dear life. The urge almost brings me to my knees a few times in our short walk. I stay silent, as Iâm not able to trust myself with whatever could spew verbally from my mouth. Jackson opens my building door and holds it open for me.
âWill you be okay from here?â he asks.
Yes, no, not really, maybe. What the hell do I say? Before my brain formulates a decent response to the question, my body answers for me, and my traitorous lips crash into his. Jackson grabs my waist and kisses me as though heâs been roaming a desert and Iâm his oasis, his water.
âMaia.â My name leaves his lips through the kiss in a guttural moan, and it sounds so freaking hot. It must be the alcohol affecting me, because every nerve in my body feels like itâs laced with live voltage.
Jackson pushes me up against the far wall, and the first thought that pops into my head is, thank God I donât have a doorman. My body rocks between the wall and Jackson, and his hips grind me into the plaster so hard Iâm worried for a moment that Iâll go straight through. Our kisses are feverish, almost suffocating us, and the air around us electric. He struggles to find bare skin, practically clawing at my clothing. Without a momentâs hesitation, I reach down for his belt buckle, my fingers clumsily prying it apart. I want to feel Jackson so badly that the thought clouds every other in my mind.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Jacqueline Abrahams is the author alter ego for an ordinary mum to three children (two human and one canine) and wife to one husband. Born in South Africa, she now calls Sydney, Australia her home.
A collector all things books and bookish, she in an avid reader and has a tiny obsession with filling bookshelves. When she's not preoccupied wearing her aspiring author or mummy hat, she is working her way towards completing a degree in Primary and Secondary Teaching (with an English major of course!)
Scared of Beautiful is her debut new adult novel, the first in The Scared Series.
Twitter username: @authorjabrahams
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